2009, when one looks back on a year does it ever seem to make sense, or does one just see alot of choices made in moments of panic?
How do I define all that happened in 2009?
That is something that I have been pondering, what do I look back on and remember the most about this year?
The answer to that question is also a hard one, for right at this moment I have regret.
Regret that I did not do enough, that I did not do all that I could, that I took so many things for granted, things that no matter what I do, can never be altered.
I also see times of sacrifice, intense joy, ultimate suffering, love beyond this life, moments that I hope will define me as a better person, moments of renewal, reunion and remembering things of long ago. It has been a year to say the least and one that in all my power will not be repeated, but there is also much hope in the year to come and dreams of peace for my soul.
But for today, I am wearing my heart on my sleeve, tears come easily and often, thoughts are constant in my mind and reminders of sacrifice for my behalf on the forefront of my being.
What was 2009 like for you?