What a funny thing that I look forward to seeing what others are up to each and every day. Is that a sign that there is something seriously lacking in my life? I have no answer for that except this un-planned-down-time gave me time to think about this, YES, I will say it out loud- OBSESSION that I have with the blogging world. I mean, me, going to the Library, waiting for at least 20 minutes for a computer to come free so that I can check my e-mail and then see what has happened in the blogging world without me there.
Was I missed?
Did anyone notice that I was gone?
I am so glad to see that there were some that noticed and YES, I Purelled everyone when we came out the door. But it also made me see that the ones that have been missing me were right in front of me all along. I have two amazing kids (how they came to be is another amazing miracle of a story). Kids that a very loving Heavenly Father knew that I needed in my life to make me complete! So how much time have I really spent with them this summer? Did I spend my time wisely, making memories and not waste it coming up with the most clever post, one that would surely get me noticed by other bloggers, something that the SITS would want to immediately comment about, something that I could use as a potential second money maker. This is where I went wrong......
So dear reader, I will be blogging less, you might hear from me in the comment area less, but it is not something that you have done, rather it is an awakening that I have had within myself. I need balance, the right balance of time dedicated to those that are right in front of me, those that need me right now. So that in ten years from now, I will not turn around from blogging and realize that my kids do not want to spend time with me, they have moved on, that my husband has become a gourmet cook and no longer needs me to feed the empty belly, that I have lost all that time that will never be again.
So even though we are back, we are back with a new perspective and a greater appreciation for the small glitches that prove to be the greatest learning moments, if one just takes the time to learn.